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Rant Raw [11 Nov 2009|10:49pm]

I find myself increasingly with out care. I am failing college, so? i have no money, so? I want it to all just stop, so? its that, so? Always there, just there at the end. Can't stop it, wish i could. I am not sad i am failing. I stop caring when i realized it doesn't matter. Its my parents i Have to tell them the responceable one is failing. Yea Image that is what it comes down to in the end. Who we want to be to others. Not who we are. I wonder if that is a product of our culture, by our I mean the shit we get from the internet and the television.

if you think the nets are free why do we have copyright laws? We do we even have  currency for that matter? It does relate back to anythingm just data pooled and collected on every street with a massive black bias, only the rich get a fuck. they are the only one that proffit from this system, those 1% not us. The slow, the stupid, the lazy, and I guess me, the broken hearted dreamers...

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Virtues [30 Aug 2009|09:01pm]
[ music | Hippo? ]

Last game this issue came up: What the hell do the virtues even do? I have been stuck thinking about this a lot since that game. As it is mostly an underused option in our games. Both by myself as for story interaction and the players for larger dice rolls, our group is one of the dice pool groups. I am not sure if the reason for this is my fault for making the game too easy or the players for not comprehending the rules as they should.

First and for most the official description of virtues from page 117; “The children of the Gods do not feel as mortals do. With the ichor of their divine parent burning in their veins, Scions are driven by passions both heroic and terrible. These passions, or Virtues, are what drive Scions to perform their epic deeds. Sometimes, when their passions run away with them, it can lead to terrible tragedy as well, as many heroes of legend learned to their regret.” And he is what they do, “Once per story per dot her character possesses in a particular Virtue, a player may spend a Willpower point to add a number of bonus dice equal to the Virtue rating to the character’s dice pool for actions that relate to that specific Virtue. For example, a Norse Scion with a rating of 3 in her Courage Virtue would gain three bonus dice for a combat-related dice roll by spending a Willpower point. She could gain these bonus dice up to three separate times during the same story. Performing a stunt that strongly reflects the values of a given Virtue can restore one use of this benefit.

Okay, that sounds awesome, but there is a downside. As you can see you must spend Willpower point. That isn’t that bad, but again Willpower isn’t that readily available at least by how a Storyteller is told to run a game in Scion: Hero. (Also as I have gotten over my fears of killing my friend’s characters by a cheat, they can spent 9 Legend points and one Willpower dot not to die. Willpower quickly become something not to waste.) One Willpower point takes 8 hours of rest to restore or 4 points for a full day of R&R. I have taken to giving only one Willpower point per the start of a game night. Meaning that a player can quickly spend through their entire “Willpower points” in a single scene if they are not careful with them. Then having to wait a month, real time, for all of their Willpower points to “grow back.” Well smart players don’t have this problem. Player can also hijack the plot if need be to make their characters’ rest.

While high Virtue scores grant you an awesome addition to your dice pools it can be used against you, In the form of a Virtue challenge. A Willpower check against your Virtue(s) that can affect the story in dramatic ways. For example we have a character with high Vengeance, and they are dealing with a NPC that is a known criminal that hasn’t been punished or judged for his crimes. Or this NPC could be an old enemy needing to become an ally against a more powerful enemy. To believe even the truth from this NPC the character will have to take a Virtue challenge. If he succeeds the test he easily accepts NPC’s information as truth. If he fails the results could end up with a dead informant or worst the player actively seeking their enemies who have done less wrong in the eyes of the Character.

Something I just picked up on is Virtue Extremity which I haven’t used much as it’s kind of crazy. Basically if you pass a virtue test with more success than you have remaining willpower points you enter a state where you are controlled by that virtue. Achilles in the iliad after that bitch slap by Argaminion.

However here is something really interesting in my games as far as rules go. I have asked the players to pick at least two of their characters virtues. And one of the ones they picked must be one of the dark virtues.

With these godly characters there is an element of being both more than human and subhuman. The Dark virtues allow this to built in to my characters very well. Example: one of my players made a spy like character which she played rather meek like or less violent more craft-y. However the rules never said I could add virtue together. So it was a great surprise when she failed a Virtue check and executed a whole group of civilians weren’t doing anything wrong. The players lost information and help as well dramatically affect how the world looks at them. Every player was more than little shocked by the event. Which in a way is good, but if the player didn’t understand the reasons or the mechanics behind the results of the story something is wrong. Again I don’t know what.

I kind of feel that some of Virtues rules are kind of broken. Any rule in scion is ultimately up to the Storyteller. I haven’t hit up the forums to see how anyone else using the virtues in their game. Ultimately I will just have to spend more time micro-managing virtues into our games until they become habit.

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Einherjar [30 Mar 2009|01:11pm]
I should explain a little before you read. I have become more and mroe inrested in Vikings and thier myths in general. I was asked then to write a fiction with all these ideas in my brain they took on a slice of life and a day in the life of a member of the Einherjar.

Addtionally, Rangnorok is scarier then Revelations could ever hope to be. No really, look it up it scares me more because thier no hope you either fight or die and even then you don't get any thing but a slower death, SCARY. Valhalla sounds like fun don't it? No? oh well..

I always wonder how any God of mercy and forgiveness judges soliders and warriors. Thier is a differnce bewteen the two but both have made thier trade that of war. Don't get me wrong, i respect soldier more than most people i have never met, but according to Chrstian Beliefs they will be joining me in hell but i will be recieving a lesser punishment than them. Atleast to the Chrstian Dogma. Go back to my own view of the cosmos which is "Everyone is right and everyone is wrong" Thier is a good chance that they will go on to a place that they deserve, in the after life but where, I won't claim to know. On to the story:
 

Einherjar

    An old man stands griping, with one hand, the flagpole that stands erected on top of a tower. A tower stands before a crowd that mutters and clacks like huge chorus of song birds of a thousand different colors. The old man yells in an ancient language, long dead to the world, as those beneath him lined up in a practice formation of perfect rows and with even columns. He shakes his free hand in the air with zeal and in time with his speech.

    “Wish that guy would just shut up.” A deep voice snarls, from deep with in the crowd. This is voice belongs to a young black man in his early twenties, average height with heavy athletic build. He is dressed in the green of battle fatigues standard issue for the US army’s G.I. in the 60s. He holds his rifle with his right hand, as he holds in his left the loaded magazine as he roughly tapped it against his helmet that sat strapped tight against his chin. His name was Private Franklin Washington a brave soldier and beloved son.

    “It is the prayer to the all-father, so we may be glories in battle. It is a good thing he shares his blessing with us, Franklin of America.” A gruff and gravelly voice responds next to the first voice. This voice belongs to a very tall man with a great beard of bleached yellow hair and mane of the same that fell around his head in an angelic halo. His eyes were closed and his left hand he held a horned helmet. He was covered in furs but from beneath those furs the armor of black metal scales shine like a terrible reptile with angry gleam. His right forearm was covered in a large round shield and his hand rested a sword that hung from his belt on his right side. The man was Bjorgolf the Strong, a great captain and mighty father of 12.

    “Every damn day, and I still don’t understand what that guy is saying.” The deep voice of Franklin retorts back. 

    “You need to be calm, Franklin of America. This is the only time we have to be at peace with our selves.” Gruff and gravelly Bjorgolf responded in counter. 

    “What about the feast, Bjorgolf? That is after all relatively peaceful affair.” A strong English accent stated from beside both. This man was the shortest of his two companions but the easiest to be seen or noticed. This man was dressed in a bright red tunic and deep navy pants which were crossed by two white leather straps that rested against his torso and back. Standard for the uniform of Victoria’s English Army. He had a rifle slung over his shoulder. He was busying himself with his white strapless helmet with his white gloved hands. When he finally approved of his helmet’s resting place he would start to stroke his bushy, hefty mustache. His name was Richard Ayre, loyal servant to the crown even in his finest moment.

    “That is more than a battle, my friend Robert of London. After all, the feast becomes no better than these battles with the way we take to drinking of our hosts’ generous stores...”  Bjorgolf stated his ocean deep eyes sliding open, his intense gaze locking on Robert with a huge smile in his good humor bearing down, before he closed his eyes again.

    “Yea, bets on how this will go down today, Robert?” Franklin asked, as he slid the charging bolt back on the rifle checking if the chamber was clear, it always was.

    “Well, those Hun champs are with us today so no more of that nasty bit with their mashers. Those Slavs are looking ready for fight. The good froggy bastards behind us have their, how did you put it? “Game faces” on? And that yank fellow with the two irons isn’t here so… I’d say moderate?”

    “Always the damn optimist, ain’t ya Robert?” Franklin stated with a smile trying to creep on to his face as he gently slid the bolt back allow him to place the magazine into its well.

    “Enough. May you both kill well today!” Bjorgolf said, his eye sliding open quite forcefully with his ice cold gaze landing on the chanting man on top of the tower.

    The chanting man stopped speaking his antique tongues with his eyes that stared off into the sky, two single propeller planes flew low over head. Every one watched them pass. Then when they were just to become specs in the sky again, a single white stream of cloud from the far side the rolling hills erupted in sudden spark. It crashed into one of the planes with an explosive squall of red and yellow that hurled its self downward in a black cloud signaling the first victory of to the nameless foes.

    “Damn! They're getting good with those things…” Franklin marveled as he clicked off his weapons safety. He eyes searched for one of the foes in the distant hills.

    “This is an omen!” Bjorgolf grunted. Then he raised his left hand and placed onto his head his large horned helmet.  When the strange helmet rested on his head the giant man drew his blade and let out a fierce roar of turmoil from deep within his soul for his nameless comrades struck down. The action startled many near him; behind him two of the white robe knights of the Red Cross Templars crossed themselves from the sight and the sound.

    “Well, those gents are early, by 20 minutes I should say.” Robert stated watching his broken watch try and tick on. He wound the watch with three quick turns of his wrist before sliding the watch into his pocket. Slinging his rifle around his shoulder and opening the breach and placing a single round into the open chamber before closing it again.

    “Must be getting ready to hit them hard and fast…” Franklin mused aloud.

    “Or hoping they waste their daemons’ fire before our dragons of steel arrive.” Bjorgolf stated.

    Both Robert and Franklin stared at the giant and then each other before they rolled their eyes. His strange desire to want to believe in some sort of magic still bothered them, but given where they were they couldn’t decide whether or not to correct him.

    “Forward!” A voice from the front ranks yelled to be heard over the voices of the warriors their squawking amongst each other had grown louder after the display. However, as the lines of their formation began moving slowly forward and the noise dropped away. A dark and heavy mood settled over the group as their loud synchronized steps sounded across the rolling green hills.

    They marched on in that silence for some time, over green hills and grassy knolls; before long they came to a steep decline into a large basin that opened up before them. 

    There another group of colors and silver glints stood. Having already made it a third of the way across from the opposite side of the open and flat ground and started dumbly at the new arrivals.

    The same voice that had ordered them forward gave a charge order that was quickly drowned out by thousands of different battle cries from both sides. As they screamed and stampeded towards each other the ground shook with enough force to felt miles away. Bits of rocks and dirt were sent bouncing up into the air which created a cloud of dust, before the two waves of bodies crashed together, like two avalanches forcing their way against each other fighting for dominance of a small mountain’s cliff. The energy of a sudden madness in the charge took hold of all and some knowing better surged forward with the mass into the blur of carnage. The clash of steel was loud and quickly followed by screams of men dying on blades. 

    Bjorgolf smashed his way through friend and foe alike to drive himself further into the center of his now chosen foes. Any crossing his path was either knocked to the side by his massive shield that sent men flying or cut down with a single, silver stroke of his large sword. Those that could have escaped would only miss their limbs rather than their lives. These fortunate ones would live long enough to grieve their wounds in a loud chorus of screams that would be choked off by Bjorgolf’s allies struggling to surge forward with him.

    Franklin carried away by the charge soon realized his folly and vainly he tried to stop himself self on the last few steppes of the hill. However, the grass still slick from the morning dew provided the means by which he slipped onto his rear. As he landed painfully he continued to slide down the hill to its base. Raising his weapon, he sought a target to fall into the line in his iron sights. He found one in an Ottoman soldier. 

Ottoman soldier's bow slung on his back, with his sword raise in preparation for a strike on a downed man-at-arms.

Franklin lined up his sights and squeezed the trigger, the short roar of the gun flared to life spitting the golden copper of empty castings to his right. One of the rounds caught the Ottoman in chest and then another in Ottoman’s head which exploded out from the back in a red halo.

    Robert was still at the top of the hill, the grey of Blitzkrieg flanking him as he carful pick his targets from a far. Firing, clearing the breach and replacing the shell with a fresh round in a practice motion bought on by centuries of use.  The rush of each bullet's wake pass them by as hot lead was traded between the two group of troops before the bullets would hit its mark with deadly precision. Robert continued to trade these deadly volleys with the other side of the skirmish, till all of that group fell to the combined skills of himself and his comrades on top of the hill. Those not part of these shooting galleries would feel the rounds passing back and forth over thier heads.

    Franklin rose, realizing his exposed state and made a beeline for Bjorgolf. However, Franklin’s ally was clear across the field of battle and so where the people that want his life this day. Franklin tumbled away from an axe that flew toward him strait into the path of a large hammer wielding man in a breastplate. The warrior had the hammer raised to strike. Franklin pivoted on his heel dodging the death blow as it came down before slamming his rifle’s stock into the hammer-wielder’s jaw, sending him sprawling. As he approached closer to Bjorgolf he fell into the path that the giant once took, bodies cleaved apart formed an easy but slicked trail of the Viking’s berserker furry that he followed like Dorothy to OZ.

    Bjorgolf at that moment buried his sword through two men; he turned producing a small hand ax from beneath his furs, and before he shouted to Franklin by name as he let fly the ax.

    Franklin knew never to question Bjorgolf when axes were being thrown, as he had learned from past experiences. He just dove in to the grass as the hand ax whistled over his head. Franklin heard the wet splat and the angry grunt of another fur covered warrior as the ax sank home into a man's shoulder. Franklin rolled onto his back, raised his weapon and held the trigger down pointed in the direction of the now wounded warrior. The now dead man slumped down on to his knees before falling flat in heap. The fur covered warrior’s body shredded by the hail of lead. Franklin rose, ejecting the now empty magazine. Replace it with a fresh magazine now covering Bjorgolf's rush into the charging masses with a near wall of lead.

    Back on top of the hill, Robert continued picking off target with a brisk pace. He had traded his breach charge rifle for one of the dead Nazi soldier's bolt action rifle, now killing with ease. He lost count but had managed to keep himself alive despite the enemies' best tries with arrows, bullets, and sharpened steel. Robert was soon feeling very good, that was until one of the grey soldiers beside him shouted a single word while trying to run away from the group.

    “Panzer!”

    Robert looked up on the other side of the basin; a black tank’s cannon stared back like an evil eye of an angry god.

    “Bloody He-” was all the English soldier was able to get before the tank unleashed its ordnance in a flash of white smoke.

    Bjorgolf and Franklin both heard the cannon fire and the explosion of the shell. Back to back they looked up at one hill then the other. Every one was in a stun sense of silence before a yell of triumph sounded, followed by more yelling and the sharp clang of steel. 

    “Come! We slay a dragon” Bjorgolf stated with a shining gleam of joy in his eyes. The tank began to fire indiscriminately into the crowd now, each blast of the explosions sent warriors, weapons and dirt raining down on others, friends and foes alike.

     Franklin gapped on in disbelieve as the giant warrior started his juggernaut swagger, foes falling before him as he started towards the tank. With a shake of his head, Franklin dropped his now spent rifle, drew his knife, hustling to keep up with Bjorgolf. 

    The tank was led by Hauptsturmführer Michael Wittmann, an SS tiger captain. He stared down at the carnage from his observation periscope smiling. He was doing well today. Shouting, he order Rudolf Hirschel to radio to control to have them tell the planes where the battle was and make sure reinforcements were on their way. Then he turned to Henrich Reimers ordering him to move the tiger forward and down the hill. Karl Wagner and Günther Weber were still following their orders to continue their barrage on the crowd. Wittmann smiled wider. He sat down, in his posh chair placed in the tank, content. He did enjoy a good war.

    On the field, Bjorgolf's march had come to an end as the weight of his foes rushed in against the giant warrior stopping his momentum. Each of Bjorgolf's foes hopped that at least one of them could claim the glory of killing him. None could, as one of the oldest soul in Valhalla, Bjorgolf was a legend in his own right. A Templar in more modern plate was cut almost in half by the giant warrior's single stroke. A Byzantium sergeant’s sword and shield could not stop Bjorgolf’s heavy stroke that cut him down the middle. An American solder, one that Franklin recognized as a paratrooper, came charging with a rage-filled shout while he held his rifle with bayonet like a small spear.  The paratrooper’s yell died short as Bjorgolf took the paratrooper’s head with his sword's superior reach. Another Viking with an ax came forward, Bjorgolf smashed the Viking’s skull in with his massive shield’s edge as he cut a blue skin highlander in half.

    Then high over head a wailing scream of a dying plane. Its engine choking on the black clouds it now produced as its propeller tried in vain to spin. Flaming wings like a dying phoenix accented the plane as it ungracefully fell towards the huge grind of warriors. In shock and horror, the men fighting below realized the plane was coming down on top of them. The sharp wail increased before it bounced, like a skipping stone on the calm pond’s surface, as it came back to earth. On its second bounce the plane hurled itself apart sending fragments in every direction but the canopy and massive engine block still hurling its self on fire forward. Before long this flaming coffin, with its burning charge still trying in vain to escape; began to roll. With each of its hops it become more dangerous as it smashed through warriors left and right. It continued to hop towards the mass of foes, surrounding Bjorgolf, who noticed it went diving for cover. Bjorgolf grabbed Franklin and hurled the soldier over several combatants. Franklin watched as the aircraft slammed into his friend but his vision disappeared before he like the plane came to a rest on the ground.

    As Franklin tried to gather himself up he heard a battle cry and a dark spear wielding warrior came towards him holding the spear high to strike.

    ‘Well this was fun…’  Franklin thought darkly. 

    The sharp report of a pistol firing three times broke him from his dark musing. Franklin watched the dark skin warrior drop to the ground with ugly holes across his back. Staring dumbly as Richard came up and stood before him.

    The English soldier had lost his right arm which his tunic covered the ugly stub in dark strips that hung down like dried tentacles. In his left he held the pistol that had just saved his life. His face was covered with dirt and blood, his helmet gone as was the clean as sharp look he often held.

    “I’d offer you a hand but I am in need of a new one myself.” Richard smiled as he yelled.

    Franklin smiling as he go up, “Thought you bought it back there with the tank blast.” 

    “What? I am sorry some bastard in that infernal machine shot at me with cannon! Although it is pleasant to not hear you butcher the Queen's language!” Richard yelled still smiling at the cheap jest of his friend.

    Franklin smiled too now, then he noticed an AK-47 on the ground. Franklin bent and picked it up. Rising back up with the rifle, a long range report of a rifle crackled off in the distance. Franklin looked at Robert as a large blood of fresh blood pooled from a new wound as Robert’s body fell backward to the ground.

    Franklin turned on the hill, a large coat wrapped figure held a rifle in what looked like surprise. The sniper's eyes large and his mouth wide in an 'o' of surprise as though he never thought he could actually take the killing shot. 

    Franklin took aim at the man, with a scream of rage as he squeezed the trigger till the rapid click sound the rifle was spent. Almost all the rounds missed but one that caught the mysterious coated figure in his shoulder. Franklin was ticked ‘busted Russian weapons’ he snarled to himself.

    Franklin set off toward the hill in a spirint, he came to a dead stop as he realized he needed a weapon. He looked around and saw the closest was still being used by its owner. Franklin jumped on to the back of this mailed warrior wrapping his hands and arms around the warrior's head before he twisted with all his might. Sure enough, the warrior neck snapped and Franklin riding on his back slammed into the ground. Picking up the sword as he throw off his helmet he set off again toward the wounded soldier but more soldiers dressed in the same coats were coming down the hill now and several were trying to help the wounded sniper.

    Franklin snarled deep in his throat. He began to cut through them as he passed them like he had seen Bjorgolf do. The first one died as Franklin slashed at him in his stomach. The second vainly tried to aim before a deep slash to his side took him from the field. The third a thrust through the middle like a pinned insect as he came directly toward the enraged soldier. A fourth beheaded as he tried to strike Franklin with a rifle like a club. A fifth, half way up to Franklin’s target, was cleaved at the leg and rolled down the hill trampled as his comrade who tried to catch Franklin. The sixth, Franklin smashed in the face with the pommel on his blade before Franklin grasped the knife on the sixth’s belt and stabbed the knife’s owner in deep into the sixth's heart. The seventh from a slash in his back as this soldier was holding the wounded sniper up and helping him away from the field. The eighth coming to help in vain he caught Franklin’s blade with his chest after Franklin threw it, falling just next to the sniper as he dropped.

    Franklin grasped his sword pulling it free he kicked over the wounded sniper. Surprised to find him no more than a young babe of a boy, little more than 16. Franklin raised the blade for the final cut, with no feeling but the rage for his fallen friend.

    There was a sharp whistling sound as Franklin feels a solid weight slam in to his left soldier. He feels his feet starting to leave the ground; his head turned a bit, and he stares at a man larger and more muscular than Bjorgolf with a deep red beard and hair. The man was holding a hand hammer with a head the size of Franklin’s which was pressed against Franklin’s chest. A bright light flared then and with it a deafening roar of an explosion, which blinded Franklin. When his vision came back he saw his left arm was flying in an arc away from him and felt him self in the air. He watches in an odd numbness as the color slowly drains away from his vision and darkness overcomes him. As the sky over his head spins and spits with a thousand shapes and sound.

    Then sounds of feasting and the roar of drunken conversation started in the blackness.

    “Yes Robert of London that hurt, however, the iron Pegasus did not take me though it was a good try.” Bjorgolf said from across the darkness through a mouthful of meat and mead making his already gruff voice even rougher.

    “Oh?” Dry English voice of Richard cooed from beside Franklin's waking mind.

    “No it was that dragon, I had managed to tear off the top scale of the beast and toss one of the magic rocks.”

    “They are called grenades, they aren't magical Bjorgolf. They’re a mechanically timed chemical explosive.” Franklin raised his head off the table opening his eyes to find the Viking warrior across the table with a meat staked on and stacked up on his knife. Gone were Bjorgolf's shield and helmet.

    Swallowing down the last of what he was chewing Bjorgolf continued “So I use ‘Greek-naves’ and the dragon exploded but I failed to remember how the beast sometimes spills more of its fires upon its death and that caught me in its death throws. It is good to see you awake now, my friend Franklin of American.”

    “Wish I wasn’t” Franklin stated rubbing his head. A figure moved past and placed a six pack of unmarked brown, capped glass bottles covered in frost and a large plate of food before Franklin. Franklin dug in with zeal after snapping off one of the caps off using the table as his bottle opener.

    “Yes the reawakening is always a little unpleasant.” Robert stated as he drank from a tankard that Franklin was sure was warm beer.

    “Just wish I would wake up somewhere else. Instead of this nightmare.” Franklin stated between bites.

    “Can’t argue with that logic, old chap.” Robert stated before he took another draft. 

    “Enough!” Bjorgolf slammed the knife down on the table. “Night after night I have to hear about how your god has left you to rot in Hel. That this can’t be the good paradise that you were promised, surely it must be your Hel. That you were good men in your lives that were not evil and you repented for your ‘sins.’ Which both of you seem to not see that according to your faith you deserved more punishment than this; you should be thankful! For the last twelve thousand winters I have been here, and this is my paradise. When winter came to my land and the season had been plentiful, I took it as a sign to go a Viking. I could have stayed and lived a long life with my children to see my grandchild become kings." Bjorgolf took a swift drink of the liquid in a cow horn before he threw it aside his angry glare settled on his two friends.

    "No, I left in a sturdy vessel leading six more such ships. We sailed along the coast attacking small villages and garrison for months. Finally we came to the ancient home of Odysseus finding many riches from traders’ ships and their ports. Then the Greeks rallied and trapped us in a harbor with their fire. I jump on to the Greeks’ ships one after another killing them and turning their fire upon each other till on the final they turn their fire on me alone, but still I was able to kill their captain the man that came up with the plan. Four ships would never return home, two to storms on the journey back, and two to the flames. My story would inspire countless generations and my bloodline would become kings of your England, Robert of London. I went out for fame and glory when I went a Viking, both of you became warriors for the same selfish reason that I did. Greed and bloodlust." Bjorgolf pointed one of his long digits at Robert as the English man tried to say something. "Don’t try and tell me you didn’t Robert of London! You went to that dessert of grass and death to make your father proud, by becoming an officer and hoping you would be knighted by your beloved queen for your stupidity.  You died covered in blood still trying to kill your foes with your bare hands, your insides hanging from your open wounds after you tried to used your weapon as club, and the Valkyries loved you for it. Telling Odin of your death with love in their beautiful voices." Bjorgolf finished with tears threaten to spill from his eyes at the memory from so long ago.

    Turning his heavy gaze onto Franklin, Bjorgolf started again with heavy tone. "You, Franklin of American, you are no better. You went to that dark jungle prove you were more of a man than your father even though he told you the harsh truth. Yet you, thinking you knew better, went without paying the man that raised you any heed or respect. Hoping that when you came back you could raise your self up through your college to a high status as a freeman in the ‘new age.’ In that jungle did find yourself more of a man? No, you found your father was right and your death as you killed countless “Charlies” in the same berserker rage that the god of storms had to come down here to strike down on this day! You need to learn it this is the best thing to that ever happened to your pathetic soul. For it does not matter what happens tomorrow or the next day unless it is Ragnarök!”

    A chorus echoed around the hall “Ragnarök” echoed around the hall, leaving a heavy silence on the three men after it passed.

    Finally Bjorgolf continued when the silence began to drown out the rest of the noisy, joyful hall. “With how you died, how can you question the all-father and his Valkyrie maidens that brought you before him when he welcomed you as one of the Einherjar? If you have to question that, your right, you don’t belong here, you belong in Hel. Serving the twisted goddess that bares her name to that place, Hel herself, till Loki sails out from that cold pit with you and the other dregs to die again on my blade!” Bjorgolf shouted as he began to shovel food into his mouth again.

    The meal that night was a silent one, heavy with shame and anger. Both Robert and Franklin left that night early to fall into a deep sleep in their beds in hall of dreams.

    The next morning at the break of dawn an old man stands gripping, with one hand, the flagpole that stands erected on top of a tower. A tower stands before a crowd that mutters and clacks like a huge chorus of birds of thousands of different colors. The old man yells in an ancient language long dead to the world, as those beneath him lined up in a practice formation of a square rows. He shakes his free hand in the air grapping at the air with zeal and in time with his speech.

    “Wish that guy...” The deep voice of Franklin tried to bark out.

    “Could be worse you know.” Robert interrupting beside him as he too looking up at the tower, “We could have to hear Wagner ever morning.” 

    A group of German soldier passing a cigarette around behind the two men burst into tears of laughter, along with Franklin and Robert equally laughing. Bjorgolf not understanding just shook his head as he smiles with his closed eyes waiting for another day for the end of all worlds.

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Image Exercise... [27 Jan 2009|04:29pm]
[ mood | cold ]
[ music | Jazz ]

Black lines like mechanical spikes ticking and stabbing on a crackling line of invisible shine. All spring from two sphere orbs of featureless black except that stabbing contrast of an hourglass of blood. All above the sandy color back ground blurred out of details by fine focus on that xenos creature. It waits in a world of silence for prey in plain sight.

Where did it come from? From above where the crack in the ceiling is just before the wall where it seems like the wall upped and moved away from the ceiling leave an inch of black. In that space in the space between spaces, a world of dust and darkness unseen by many for so long. A creature of octave, born with its eight eyes and arachnid limbs with a ravenous hunger and thirst, that could only be satisfied by its mother’s flesh and blood there in those shades. From that macabre scene of Cronus’ sins reenacted by inversion, the creature then survives by a gloomy conquest of hunger, devouring all its weaker siblings to state that growing hunger. With each these Abel like murders filling its stomach and in doing so, it filling its scarlet hourglass like the mark of Cain.

Then at full size did it in set out to complete the act of continuing its sinister legacy there, in that dim span? With one of the few siblings to survive its slaughter, or did more come from some unseen entrance for creatures that move along the walls with ease? Creeping in through the shadows like rude guests to a party that had no invitations and staying there indefinitely without a sound to their most unfortunate hosts. Some solace comes from the detail that at least these guests were willing to wordlessly kill other uninvited guests that have the audacity to sing and chirp with merry warmth at all hours of the night and day alike. These guests only stop when the keepers of the quarters come to witness, starting soon after when the keepers would then turn their backs.

Is that how they survived in that space? Do the creature that move with hydraulic pressure instead of cords in suits of armor, bump in the night unseen, unheard mere feet below a place of sleep for one of the wardens? Having a kingdom in the dust, fortified with shiny and strong silk woven, fresh from the blood of their preys’ inners, into the castles of beautiful spirals to catch yet more prey. A prey that doesn’t seem to stop even when fair-haired frost visits the land, coming for the flowers and other creatures the black killers dines upon. So in that black and dirty kingdom prospers with food and a menacing queen. Breeding and eating all those seeking warmth and safety from the cold fury of winter. Growing larger and larger as each creature comes into the kingdom is hunted and eaten. However, Kingdoms are rarely so stable especially with cannibals.

Finally with enough numbers does that Queen flee the land of dust and darkness into the light of the keepers? Down the yellow-grey walls to slick brown counter tops, hiking to the sand colored dual sinks with its silver faucet overlord to take up one last claim for territory?

I pity that creature if so. Soon my mother will walk into the room. I will show her the creature blissfully deaf to her cries of shock and fear of that small creature should it bite. Then will come from a can the hiss of white foam and strong smell of chemical that will be the death by drowning for the creature. Twitching and struggling in its death throws, a pearl of black with those mechanical stabbing arms slashing the empty air in a sea of white bubbles popping and sliding against the smooth walls of the sink. Then it stops and all that remains it to turn on the tap so the torrent of water can fall down on the spider and wash it away. Then the moon will come out and the drain will still be moist.

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Sunday insanity... [22 Jan 2009|03:30pm]
[ mood | amused ]
[ music | Say it ain't so - weezer ]

Last game was bit better everyone liked it more, except Trent who wasn’t there, again.

As I stated last time about the RPG it’s like herding cats. This group has odd creative thoughts. Jon led the group and a charge of strange ideas. Let me tell you about the idea.

The Rival Scion, Sanchez, is born of the Aztec gods he isn’t a nice guy. The Aztecs aren’t nice gods. See where this is going? No? Okay here is the truth, Aztec demand blood and human sacrifices. Lots and lots of them so much that the Aztec special boons all revolve around the use of sacrifice, the players or the players’ enemies. They are amazingly powerful boons that actually give legend back to the players; Sanchez used his sacrifices for fame and legend. So this got me thinking, in the cannon of the story and true enough in my own setting the path to the underworld is blocked.

Where do the souls of the dead go then? They wander pissed off most of the time. However one question always got me about the Aztec where the hell do the souls of those sacrificed go? The souls go to Mictlan which was the lowest (ninth) level of the underworld a journey of peril and rage, so they say. But that seems really fucked up. ‘Yea I got killed in sacrifice to the god who tells you what to do; so point me the way to your lowers part of the underworld please?’ yea sure. Any way the dead get kill what if the souls of all those killed would gather together and try to find the way to ‘heaven’ themselves? What if the journey became too much? What if in the pain despair and anger of the spirits becomes something else? Like evil? What if a titan helps out just a bit?

That’s where the “Super Vengeance spirit” comes from or “The many of one.” I need a better name. The idea is that souls that have been sacrificed have banned together to find a way to heaven. Ultimately failing they become a twisted mockery of the underworld and create a creature of their rage and despair. Awesome huh? Basically it’s a giant specter, from hero undead antagonist section, with a shit load of tricks up its sleeve. Like for example its faster, stronger, and generally more pissed off than the heroes. It also can regenerate legend by shedding its skin.

It’s hard for me to gauge the group’s reactions to the descriptions but then again no one really got a good look at the creature. It basically looks like, at least in my head, a lot of super imposed images countless stacked on top of each other of a huge shadow with glowing red eyes. When it ‘talks’ it has the voices of all its countless souls that make it up each with a different emotion powering them. Some with sobs and chokes, some with shill crazy anger, some emotionless deadness of sorrow, some with humor of hysterics, all of them at the same time. Anyone who could hear this chorus would be shocked crazy.

Which is how I started the episode, Toni freaks the player chase him down he goes nuttier and nuttier than Sanchez shows up. Original I just had him babble Spanish then the thing kicks the players’ asses. That kind of craziness went to hell when an upgraded Zya, played by Melissa was like “OH! My new knowledge lack let me know of his craziness!” It was kind of cool how I got a player to use their power with out realizing it.

Any the game goes on with some minor character randomness Boni, yes damn it I like the “i’s” instead of the normal y, minor reasons why she hates Sanchez. Giving the players the minor choice of what they can do to see the creature. The ways were one find Hermes and ask him to see the dead, two hold a seyons to contact the spirit and reason with it.

This was actually pretty funny for the amount of times he almost got himself killed as well as the group. Jon has a habit of rolling biffs or no successes and one 1 on his dice polls. This has happened repeatable most games usually when he is trying something important. One time he tried acting like someone to prevent the raising of the alarm, failed, another time just before they faced off a group of dwarfs and giants he use a boon to try and blind them, failed. As I have said truly epic fails should be epic, the blinding ended up blinding every one of the players. One time Bubba was screeching the beach with a radar system on his truck and biffed the searching roll. I made him find a sea mine that was buried and destroyed his truck a running gag of the game is me destroying his truck.

That’s off topic, but fun. Any way Jon researches methods to see ghost and I remember the idea from Peter Jackson’s The Frighteners which is the idea to make him self have a near death experience. Michael J Fox’s character can see the dead because he watched his wife die as he was dying himself. Jon tried this he made himself a ghost nothing more. Bitching the whole way whatever.

Later that night the players’ use Sanchez as bait and trap the creature in a circle of salt, rosemary, sage and time. I mean no song references here. The creature gets caught and I add the bonus that Toni can’t see the creature and freak out I am going to make it a special power that it has to scream with all its voices, a Manipulation plus Presence roll for the creature and Wits plus Integrity for players. Failing you go mad.

One of the things I have to do is figure out how you kill a ghost as a ghost. I know I need legend maybe I should look at Demigod. I was thinking something about legend spending.

One of the things I am not having as much fun as I should is that I broke from the theme, which was epic, a darker version of Shoot ‘Em Up.  I have the street fighter alpha 3 announcer in my head every time I say that.

The game that night ends with Jon and Spalding’s characters not rolling high enough for a double up attack, which cause their circle to be broken and their bodies to be high jacked by some of the souls on the “Many of one.”

            Hopefully I will have more idea when I go to the game on Friday.

Note that I played the game after spend the first half of that day killing Zombies for L4D.

 

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Left 4 Dead [15 Jan 2009|12:28pm]
[ mood | bored ]

I never liked horror movies. Clarification: Slashers and Zombies movie specifically, love monster movies and supernatural spin tingles are always a good time for me. However, our protagonists in most horror movies are often short a few cents when it comes to brains. If I wanted to watch stupid people do stupid things and then scream at one another I would go to the mall and watch them in their natural environment.

Some zombies movies are classic, "Night of the Living Dead" and "Shawn of the Dead." Often zombie films are beloved by my friends, notable Jon and Aaron. A lot of games try to capture the feelings of Zombie movies and with them our love as well. Few have succeed the Resident Evil series being one of the few. The games that haven't are fun but not like a Zombie game should.

Well last week I got myself a copy of "Left 4 Dead," a zombie coop slug fest, and it was awesome.

Four survivors must band together and stay alive or be left for dead. Bill the ex-Green Beret, Francis the Biker gang member, Louis the bank manager, and Zoey the college student. Player randomly, or pick which ever character they want to play as. Their is no different in picking on character over the others. Only the hand models change and Zoey is closer to the ground but than again she is short. The banter is hilarious in the game between everyone, players and characters alike. Best scene in the campaign No Mercy, on the ride up the only working elevator Zoey goes: "will their ever be peace again?" Bill savagely says "I'll see peace on earth again even if I have to murder every single one of these bastards with my bare goddamn hands!" Cal had showed us the laugh option on the radical control at this point and we and our characters spend the rest of the ride up laughing, it was great.

Most interesting about the story is that it unfolds on the graffiti walls of the safe rooms. Not in the game its self. Some of the graffiti is what you would expect to find other stuff is very depressing sort. In one room an entire wall is dictated to people that have died. There was over 40 names with dates, kind of shocking stuff.

The zombie things act like Zombies from 28 series. They are fast and not very bright and pretty easy to put down, individually. When they rush in full force they are bit of a hassle to handle. Some of the other Zombies that show up are "special" Zombies. Boomers, smokers, hunters, tanks and witches. Boomers are bloat corpse filled with bile and pheromones. If they puke or exploded on the players it attracts a horde of Zombies that all rust the covered players. The players also become blind at after being puked on. Smokers are weird, they emitted a choking field of black and have tongues that can reach across 100 meters. on dieing their head explode leaving a choking black cloud over their bodies. Hunter crawl around and jump on the characters they are actually a little cheap but kind of fun if you can ever melee hit one before it tackles you. Tank are as they sound. It is the Hulks dwarf cousin, they hit you half way across the map and throw boulders at you. The real challenge is the witches.

The witches spend their time randomly spawn sitting around and sobbing uncontrollably. They don't do anything unless the flash light is pointed at them or shot or a player gets too close. Sometimes the witches are spawn right in the middle of where you need to go or the only place to fend off zombies. If all four player work together they are very easy to take down the problem comes with how they are spawned. In some places it is better to sneak around the witches but it feels weird just ignoring her, so the group kills her.

The game is fast pace but takes a while to play out. The game is short but long. its about 4 hours to complete a campaign, but their addicting. I have played through them all and already want to do it again. The biggest problem is this game is designed for Coop with out some one else its kind of lame.

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"One Girl and One lost Cup Act ##To act or Not to act" Results and Musing [12 Jan 2009|12:45pm]
[ mood | annoyed ]

So the non-violent answer, creative game didn't go over as well as I thought. Violence is always the answer with this group okay then. Let me sorta tell you what I had in mind with last weeks game:

The idea was this: The player ruin another scions career to help Boni and Athena take over the town for Dionysus. Basic path to complete was this: The easiest way is to sabotage the show or Players could "Steal" the show. As always player gets more of a reward for taking the harder task

I thought a lot of ideas from my time with the drama club at high school on how to highjack the show. Simplifying to the extreme, but it might have worked if the player wanted to do it, but again its like herding cats with them. Let me show you how the game branched out:

Everyone of the cast of "Bleeding Heart" had a problem or quirk that would ruin them or help the players take over the show. Originally I had it that the player would be all actors; meaning they would have to fight and scheme against the rest of the actors in sorta a king of the hill for the show. IF the player exploited the problem the actor had they would destroy that actor and get them off the show, or you could blackmail them I suppose. IF the player took the more benevolent approach and helped the actor with their problem the actor would be grateful and help the players out in the show. However, this little idea went out the window when Jon and Spalding wanted to be writers for the show.

I could work with that though; I had to create 3 new NPC of the Staff to cause obstacles. A director that could be easily manipulated to let go of the project, for example. A head-writer that steals all the players' work, for example. I had originally created the emailing script system as a way for the tech savvy character an opportunity to use their skill sets to full force. The player could hack the email system that sends out the scripts and rewrite scripts for a while. When the players wanted to be writes I could add another obstacle, the head writer would have caught on and started doing something else. As well as steal all of the player's glory, meaning no legend (:’( ) for the players. When Jon and Spalding (both tech savy people) wanted to be writers it became an easy opportunity for them to steal back their fame using technological means. When I created the writer section I was hoping the players would just be slightly creative with the plot points, nothing detailed just "then this happened." Then roll and I fill in the blanks. Jon sorta caught on, but he just kept going towards the gutter, fast. Jon point out it was soap and he doesn't like them.

Firstly soaps are something every body knows: over the top, melodramatic, lame over-used plot ideas with strange acting. I pick it because on all fronts it was the best one to exploit or to make fun of. Every one had either the same knowledge of them or was willing to step back and let the insanity just play out. If I picked something else everyone would be lost. Why the Doctors though? Why not? I originally wanted to do something with a Mexican heavy theme like fresh immigrants and their trying to get use to the melting pot that is America. I cast the rival scion as a successful doctor and I have more knowledge of medical shows then the idea snowballed that way.

Anyway moving away from writers to the actors, there are lots of ways to fuck with actors. Make-up, Dressing rooms, personal problems, non-friendly friendly rivalry, acting exercises rituals. A struggling soap would have the same asshole types that any high school drama department would have. Fake people pretending they are someone else. Actors can be really cruel people because the best roles they play are their own masks. Like I said there are a lot ways for the players to achieve their goal of destroying the career of the rival scion.

Focusing on the purely sabot approach. Stealing cloths, putting dye in hair spray or gel, rigging lights to fall or shine wrong, messing with camera is more than enough to ruin any production. After enough setback shooting that day will stop and if the show as too many problems the producer will kill it. The rival will bring it back a complete of times each time getting more and more psycho on the players. Then the show will die and that is the end.
On the other hand, any actor the players help out with their problem is going to become a better actor no underlying problem so they can focus on their art. With that the player can suggest that the actors return the favor by trying to make the rival Sanchez bad, destroying his roll on acting. One of the characters was a junkie another character had image issues. The actors would become more and more aggravated at the players if they started acting better then them. No one likes to be showed up. I had one of the players, Melissa’s “Z” shoved by one of the other actress that Jon’s “Gubbie” put the character into a coma during the first day of writing and shooting. This theme would have likely continued.

I had some helpful actors for example: Joe Yogurt based on the Neil Flynn from scrubs, for both the actor and the part he plays on the show, is a nice guy and would teach any of the players some pointers so they could have some more dots in ART (acting). Yogurt isn’t going to cause problems but he isn’t going to help more than a little. Bob Spangle as Sparks the Intern is a tribute of sorts to my friend Robert Sparks, currently pre-med but already works like he is interning. Sparks is honestly one of the best looking people I know. So I always see him being something besides a nurse. Like Spangle like Sparks is joker and amusing but running on fumes and energy shots most of the time. Giving Spangle money or energy will help him out, also player could help me by tutoring him if they wanted and then he makes the dean list and no longer needs the acting job. If the sabotage route is taken the players could have change the coffee in the break room to decafe, their goes Sparks. Or they could have done something else and made him super hyper. The main rival is the issue for the players

Rodriguez Sanchez is a redundant name for sure but that doesn’t mean it didn't work. Sanchez is the rival scion. Not a fighter he is the Sly and Charismatic character. If the player tried to harm him they would have to fight the cops, Sanchez and each other. Sanchez would get one of the other players to fight for him. Nobunaga Tomyoto, or something it’s in my notes, would give the player a pretty tough fight for him. Any way Sanchez is an amazing actor, scion are amazing things, popular in Mexico and most of Latin America. Yet he is uprooted and forced to schmooze in Castle Coast for his father. He is brutal and angry taking out his problems on his sacrifices to his father. Nobunaga Tomyoto and Boni both don’t want him any where near the city, neither can do anything about him without risking their positions and neither can do that for their sires. His slow trickle is enough to keep him in the running but with Boni searching for her cup and Athena working out the fine details for her brother, there is always a chance that he will cause a major shift in the power struggle. The reason Boni hasn’t taken care of him early in the race is because he turned that charm on to her which wasn’t pretty in the after math.

As the player destroy or steal the show, Sanchez cool begins to melt and he becomes dangerous and angry. I originally wanted he tries to sacrifice some one and ends up summons some sort of monster that the band then kills. The player would learns about Sanchez’s activities than deciding whether or not to kill him. Resulting in anger or favor from the Aztec gods, and maybe a future encounter with Sanchez.

Like I said earlier this idea didn’t go over well with the players. I think it was too mundane for a Demigod level game, more a hero level.

Melissa as always been passive since she joined but that is my own fault for not giving her more power from the get go. I am going to fixed that. Spalding just like to hit things, thinking is for the dead. Trevor being absent from this last game might have been a problem, the others did feel that he had the plan and they were all waiting for him to execute that plan. I don’t know what Jon problem was. Oh well.

So the idea flopped that just means I need a new idea and direction and I have one. But I will write about that one after I have my players run through it.

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[24 Nov 2008|01:01pm]
Rules:
* Grab the book nearest you. Right now.
* Turn to page 56.
* Find the fifth sentence.
* Post that sentence along with these instructions in a note to your wall.
* Don't dig for your favorite book, the coolest, the most intellectual. Use the CLOSEST.
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Mine:
"Nothing personal," she said to the lizard.
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Burn the love and than cross the bridge in flames [24 Oct 2008|10:19pm]
[ mood | angry ]

I most likely I am going to be doing more harm than good but if we should stop talking after this? If so than that's how it goes even if it hurts.

First I don't have a problem with Eric. I think Eric is a great guy he seems nice and knowledgeable in fact he would likely be someone I could call friend if i just randomly met him and hung out. He still seems like a flake but that only add to his character.

That being said I don't like how your relationship with him is undefinable except by YOUR standards of how your fighting with him this month, or lack there of. You fall in and out of favor with him that would make a bungee jumper jealous of the elastic nature. Like that metaphor your love is the line that keeps the relationship from failing. You want support, you have it, but make up a standard and stick to it or else don't have a problem me having a view on how your relationship changes like the wind in this state. Any time you talk about the relationship. All I hear about is how your trying to save it while your prince does little to help and when he does he seem likely to throw you off the ship than help you stay on. At least from what you say which is all I have.

Third if your going to bitch out at someone be decent enough to use the name then this anonymous "you"s, it is insulting. Come out and tell me I am wrong. Post your feeling to the world but obviously directing it at me is even more of an insult. If you were trying shame me it was a pathetic attempt, High school level crap. Unless I am not the only one to have this view, in which case my points have more weight behind them. Or if you were just venting because you don't care much. I mean really, you didn't say shit during the 45 minutes I was talking about it. To some one who had no right to know. Why? I am an asshole and am tired of the switchback about your personal life. Or was your violence just your silent rebuke than you missed but it was funny for poor Jon. I mean look at this post doesn't it seem insulting, and not just because it is!

Also sorry for giving a shit about about your well being and mental health too.

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Dark knight [17 Jul 2008|11:41am]
[ mood | awake ]

I am seeing the Dark Knight tonight 12:05, which is actually is tomorrow morning but don't tell fandango that. I am looking forward to it, but i have some reservations about it.

One Heath Ledger as the joker, I don't mean to nitpick a the disfigured and grungy Joker? Not as scary or creepy as the clean cut and sharply dress Joker. Beside that isn't the bleach white Skin and green hair more than enough? I don't know I will just have to see how the film goes with the look. Heath Ledger i don't know about enough prosthetics on him to make him unrecognizable is going to a feat to act in. One of the reason the Joker is so beloved by writers and fans alike is his range. Did Ledger manage to pull this off, we'll see?

Alfred played by Michael Caine. I generally like Caine but in the first film he wasn't the Alfred we all love. 'Nuff said...

Plot, having two villains in a movie usually doesn't end well for a Batman film. Batman Forever and Batman And Robin being examples. Summary of the plot leaves me with hope but trailer show Bruce Wayne getting moody over the lover interest from the first film. In general like the pissed off Batman to the sad one, though the happy one is just scary.

As for the things: I like Gary Oldman made an awesome Young Gordon, and Christian Bale returns to play the awesome Batman role he took on in the first one. Aaron Eckhart looks and sounds like a good cast for Harvey "Two Face" Dent although i am just a little worry about how he will do the split psyche of Two-Face.

No true judgment can be made till tonight.

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Where did I leave my self? [01 Jul 2008|02:01pm]
I should update this more often…

Summer has been well, void might be too strong, and empty isn’t the truth. Normally for the summer I spend my time by signing up for some craziness that make life all that more exciding, not really but that is the idea. I can’t remember last summer I think I was actually working instead of pretending, my bank account would agree. The first summer of collage I was wasting time till I got to go to orientation for UNM. Senior year of high school I, well I can’t remember, guess that settles that, moving on.

This one I am work the same hours I was working for school year most I come in at 10 stay till closing on Mondays and Fridays, which is 6 o’clock, or I bug out some time at 4 on other days. This has left me with a lot of free time as I try to let some one actually working here answer the phone, to some minor success… I was thinking I would read but I like to read in odd places. Usually out side or by candle light but it’s a great deal too thermal either of those and my cave at the office is well no good for that. For one it’s too nosy for the small space and secondly one of my coworkers doesn’t understand two things, lot of two in this or is that just me. One is that no one cares about her life, and secondly “SHUT THE HELL UP!” doesn’t faze her like the rest of us, o most do a lot of other things too. I have a growing fear that another of my coworker secretly think I am incompetent or something yet they still leave me here alone… Oh well I have more things to worry about.

One of the things I have been doing at the office is watching an old cartoon called “Reboot.” It is the story of the computer world and programs as the live their lives in a world of viruses and users. That sound way more Soupy then it is but if you want a real description you should vist the RebootWiki or Wikipedia. I have a huge new appreciation of it because the cartoon is filled with tons of computer jokes and geek-culture jokes (popculture for geeks, some one should hurt me.) I crack up ever time I watch some scenes. The other thing is from a programmers view the show is an art house of early rendering, the show was airing before Toy Story. It’s kind of amazing the simple things they did to make the show look incredible, that being said you can still find a lot of things to point at and go “wow, those are strings, aren’t they?” And some times things are done just for the sake of doing them.

Of course there are comics too. They however are brief and lately they have lots my interest. Both DC and Marvel are in the middle of world changing multi-title, that’s different comic books, crossover events. I don’t like crossovers; most of the time they are full of holes and just ruin one of your favorite characters in an attempt to sell more comics. Example Final Crisis, first issue last week they kill J'onn J'onzz, the Martian Manhunter, by stabbing him in the chest with a flaming pike. First off this wasn’t a fight, it was an execution. Secondly why didn’t John just phase out of the fucking cuffs? Total shit and the issue wasn’t that good but pretty made no sense...

Marvel has a tendency to do better in the terms on the unholy crossover. “Civil War” was one of the best crossovers I ever read. Followed up by the powerful arcs: Captain America’s death, New Avengers and Mighty Avengers, and set the Marvel world in to two camps, well three… Marvel is in the middle of “Secret Invasion,” Skrulls, a shape-shifting race with all the powers of the fantastic four, have invaded earth by taking over the identities of earth super heroes with secret means of . Its really funny as everyone things some one else is a Skrull then the shit hits the fan and everyone was right about someone and wrong about someone else. Good times.

One feat I am trying to complete is to have a weekly LAN game, with limited success. I have had two awesome nights and 3 okay ones. Mostly everyone is already having things planed or just being retarded. So far it has been fun waste of 10 hours. Lets hope now that it is July I will have more results.

Lastly before I close this is the fact that I have a Playstation 3 now, Blu-ray and graphics rendering to rival my tower, but only just. I am quite happy with it. I got 80Gb one which means that I can play my old game on it too which is awesome. The console even re-renders the Playstation 2 games slightly better not much but hey it’s still kind of cool. The only Playstation 3 game I have right now is Metal Gear Solid 4 the final chapter of Solid Snake. Clone of the biggest and baddest solider ever to walk the world. The game is full of a lot of things and to summarize it is much more epic than I want to mange right now. Nuff said: The game rocks and doesn’t get “game of the year” someone will find their throat in my teeth.
I’ll update about other stuff later… I think and hope…
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Being Special [19 Feb 2008|08:30am]
[ mood | artistic ]

I have been in the Specialized Education program for the Moriarty Public school system since I was in about third grade. The specialized education program, or “Special Ed,” is designed to help student who test lower then normal students in reading and writing comprehension. The biggest thing they do for a member of program is place you in an environment with other and do a series of exercises to strength either vocabulary or reading or something else. In my Elementary years this was often at the end of the day and they pulled me out of class. The activities ranged from reading a book to an odd game. One time when I was playing one of these games, we sat at one of those curved semi-circle tables with another semi-circle taken out of the middle, the teacher sat there in the middle with a stack of cards. We sat around her, and each card was shown to us with a word written on it. Then someone, or me, would then take a stab at pronouncing the word on this card. It was fun, sometimes you messed up feeling silly and embarrassed the game went on, and sometimes someone else wasn’t even close: “Whoa-men” for women. In elementary I was still a child, and I thought of these little breaks from class as a blessing and joy since I get to do something fun away from the boring or scary, or both, teachers I had. Then on from my sixth grade year it stopped being fun. I was growing up so naturally the games had to an end.

I switch schools because of redistricting and found my self at a different school with new ideas about how to help me. That came in the form of, please pardon the use of all caps, ORGANIZATION! I had a bad habit of not turning in school work because I’m bit of sloth. So for some strange reason organization was deemed the reason for my need of the program. How I went from reading/writing to the condition of my backpack at the time is a great mystery lost in paper work I’ll never see. During this point I met once a week with my teacher and was shown strategies for quick-handing notes and way to be simple but neatly organized. After which I was given a pat on the hand and told to be good for my teacher and give whatever when went over a shot. I know I’m going to sound like a spoiled snot but I wanted out. However the test would have nothing to do with that.

Ever 2 years I was tested by on of the teachers in the program. The tests are bizarre, hard, weird, and slightly fun, all at the same time. Part of it’s like an ink blot test with sentences with a complementary worksheet for your time. Other parts are reading sections of text from a two-way pyramid book with you looking at one side with the story and the teacher looking at something completely different opposite of you. I can’t say that I remember the test well. It was usually in a room that was amazingly barren, painted in that lovely nerve-racking hospital sterile white, and sparse furnishings that was about as comfortable and inviting as the room without it. The tester was always wearing that smiling grimace of “be good, maybe I’m actually nice.” In an uncomfortable room that bores feelings similar to Edvard Munch’s The Scream; you find that expression slightly comforting. The tests would last anywhere from one hour to half a day depending on how hard they were picking my grey matter at the time. I didn’t know what the tests were for until high school, and to this day I don’t know what the point, if there ever was one to begin with, was. I do know that thanks to these test I am always thankful that when my teachers or professors say anything about a hard test I smile instead of groaning like my peers.

I next found myself in Junior High with another new group to teach me the joys of being one to test differently than the norm. But now I had seven different teachers teaching me seven different things. Making it easier for me to isolated and placed into an environment with others that shared my results. I found myself in place with three groups the forgotten, the troublemakers and the lost. I was a forgotten, the system trying to improve its persona as a facility for learning was keeping us hidden no matter how much we wanted to learn. The troublemakers are a self-explanatory, ranging from clever trickster to full blown juvenile delinquents. The lost were the group who were stuck in the middle between the forgotten and the troublemakers, idolizing the troublemakers for their rebellious nature and the forgotten for which they most likely would be if they weren’t so meek. I found myself annoyed at peers I looked down upon and bored out of my skull.

This is where I began one of most unhealthy additions reading for fun. I would read when I didn’t have anything else to do, which was often. When I wasn’t doing something else at home a lot of my other hobbies had reading in them: Foreign movies in subtitles, videogames without pre-voiced dialogs, and of course books. I got through a lot of books in the time from junior high to the last year high school. Ironically I started ninth grade in Basic English, moved to Regular English for tenth and eleventh grade and some how found myself in Enriched English for my senior year. I was also taking college classes and then TVI for every fall after school, once I had a car.

Something else that stared to happen after Elementary school was the IEPs, Individual Education Plans, or maybe they happen I just wasn’t invited to them. While the tests were uncomfortable, the IEPs were inhospitable to any form of comfort. You are in a room with usually two or three strangers you have never met in a closed room with your parents and maybe your English teacher. If you’re thinking that this is a meeting about how to plan out your best your educational future, you are sadly mistaken. It is a review of everything you have done how you have been doing and what you need to do to make it better next year. I once got to dissect a crawfish for a science class. My IEPs seem to be the same way, with child like glee I am tacked to a hard surface stabbed repeatedly with a knife in the gut, then have my surviving entrails ripped out and my exoskeleton shattered before someone points out they were doing it wrong and they have to start over with what is left of me. But by my junior year, the sixth one wasn’t as bad. I usually stared out the temper glass of the little closet room I was locked in, daydreaming of something trivial fantasy.

“We would like to exit you from the program, Nic.” I didn’t get whiplash but I cam close to it as my neck snapped in the direction, with my eyes bulging out as if to attack the nice, strange lady that knew me, but didn’t. “We don’t have any student in the program in the level classes you are taking,” really? I haven’t been in those kinds of classes for about two years, lady and they say I have a learning disability. The meeting blurs out leaving me with feeling two things: one smug satisfaction, I fought the system and I won. Two, resentful sorrow if I had been reading earlier in my life would have taken me nine year get were I was then?

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[18 Jan 2008|10:41am]
So waking up at 6 isn't as hard as i thought. It's leaving my comfortable and warm bed what is hard. Though my little cat Mouse, yes I am mean enough to name a cat that, makes it a little easier. Mouse is going to be a kitty size for the rest of her cat lives. She is also very friendly. If your mostly awake and aware of it Mouse will come and sit on you and do kneeing thing cats do. You think you and get out of it by rolling over on your side, but no you can't she will sit on you all ballish too. So then she leaves and then you want to get to find out what the hell she stole your warmth for.

I finished the Third Mercedes Thompson book today: Iron Kisses, third in the series, by Patricia Briggs. Mercy is a Half-Indian Walker, not to be confused with skinwalker, simiral but not really and too far south. She can "shift" into a coyote form. Her mother abandoned her after her birth after her Rodeo-rider father died. She was then raised by the "king" of werewolfs till she skipped out on that pack and moved to Tri-cities were she found her calling working for a gremlin before buying his shop after he had to relive to the public what he was a fae. That is the basic set up for the series. FIrst book is a werewolf story. The second is Vapire tail. Iron kisses is Fae centered. Their all mysteries but I didn't enjoy much of Iron Kisses as much as the other ones. Still good read Fae are scary things but Henry Dresden taught me that.
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Today is a new and beautiful day.. FOR EVIL! [14 Jan 2008|05:14pm]
[ mood | tired ]
[ music | fans.... wow there sure are a lot in this room ]

Ugh! SO let's start with today from.... When i woke up. Usually i would not make a big deal out of this but i got up before my alarm clock, which I set it for 7:00 am course i didn't get out of bed till 7:20 but I was fully awake i have 2 kitten-cats that will attest to that fact! Any way Getting cats off of the house and then into work 2 hours later because coworker made it vacation week... I hate that bitch so very much...

Found out many things today: One GJ has died, then revived and then died again. Two Never give a stupid person a computer. Third if a ship is sinking and on fire you're most likely not getting your luggage back.

I have had a GJ account since freshmen year till up to a few hours ago. GJ was a nice clean page that made my happy to update because it was so easy. Alas it is dieing and many will mourn its passing in the same way i morned Demoniod.com, which is still down...

Today has been one of the crazy days at work. Two Radios went down with out cause or reason. Two Exchange servers were giving people problems. And Jackson Hewitt, oh silly, silly, silly, little accountants. The radio is odd and we're still working on it. The AP refuse to Talk to the SU but the SUs are screaming their heads off. Exchange servers are Exchange servers, so eh. DSL is a funny thing for Qwest but not as silly as Jackson Hewitt's office being down all on the same day. I wonder if their is some kind of Murphy's law about Tax places being unable to connect to the internet during tax season.

I am so drained right now. After spend about 3 hours with 3 different people and walking them through troubleshooting and configuring thing in their computers and routers. It is amazing i feel like anything right now. I just want to go home and Drink my self asleep, Hang over be damn! But i have to run an errien first. I know its misspell but fuck i need some sleep or a drink....

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Book quotes i wish you to see from GJ [14 Jan 2008|05:12pm]
[ mood | amused ]

05:29 pm - The Good, The Bad, and The Undead (Hollows Book 2)
“Welts. And it stinks. I can smell the oil. I’m wearing dead dinosaur. I can’t wear a dead animal. It’s barbaric, Rache,” he pleaded. pg 7

But the streetlights are shot out by gun or charm as soon as the city replaces them, and no one calls the Humane Society at the sight of a loose dog, as it might be the neighbor’s kid skipping school. pg.79

My gaze drifted over the tongue-in-cheek sign peeping out from a bed of foxgloves. Day sleeper. Solicitors will be eaten. pg 81

I whipped around expecting the worst, relaxing as a cloud of pixy children descended in a high-pitched chorus of conversation too fast for me to follow. Papa Jenks had been missed—as usual. My sour mood evaporated as the darting swooping figures in pale green and gold swirled about their dad in a Disney nightmare. pg83

My eyes narrowed. “Yeah. But I don’t sleep with voodoo dolls.” pg85

He was afraid to openly show he was using magic. The prejudice wasn’t unusual. But then, after having taken an aspirin once, I’d rather be in pain than swallow another. I guess I wasn’t one to talk. pg 119

Black magic always swings back. Always. pg. 123

“Oh, no,” Jenks said merrily. “Don’t you know a vamp won’t touch you if there’s a pixy on your shoulder? It’s a well-known fact.”

Glenn hesitated, and my eyes rolled. What a crock. pg. 220

I was always struck with the impression that if he couldn’t have her, he’d be happy with her roommate. Or the girl next door. Or the woman he met on the bus this morning… pg 227

I did not believe this. I was pimping ketchup to the son of the FIB’s captain. pg. 966

Tomorrow I’d start thinking about how I was going to get out of my agreement with Algaliarept, remove the demon mark, get Nick unbound as my familiar, and live with a vampire who was trying to hide that she was practicing again. Right now I was riding shotgun to Cincinnati’s most powerful bachelor with eighteen thousand six dollars and fifty-seven cents in my pocket. And no one was going to stop us from speeding. pg 992

December 14th, 2007 11:57 am - Dead Witch Walking (Hollows Series Book 1)

And apparently pixies were the best they'd let me take out since the frog incident. I would have sworn fairies were too big to fit into a frog's mouth. pg 4

Before I found the leprechaun outlets, I had shopped in the "your first bra" aisle. It's hard finding something without hearts and unicorns on it there. pg. 5

The pixy darted from my earring, setting it swinging with his momentum. "I'd watch your mouth," he said, tilting his head as he looked at my ID. "The last lunker who laughed at her picture spent the night in the emergency room with a drink umbrella jammed up his nose." pg. 10

"I like having a pixy backup. Fairies don't do squat unless their union clears it." pg. 25

"I want sterility so my wife won't leave me." He flew a ragged path to the leprechaun. "Or is that too hard for you, greenie weenie?" pg.66

Wishes are tricky things, which was why most Inderlanders had lobbied to get a minimum of three-per-go. In hindsight, I hadn't done too badly. pg 71

They were standing before their model of DNA, and Rosalind's smile had the same hidden humor of Mona Lisa. One might think she knew what was going to happen. pg. 74

I glanced up. He was right. Funny, I never noticed it before. pg. 107

Jenks landed on the phone book and shrugged. It had been left open to coroners. pg.114

And where was Denon getting the money? My face scrunched up as I figured it out; Ivy's bribe money was paying for my death threat. pg. 126

I was living in a church—with bodies in the backyard—an I.S. death threat on me—and a vamp across the hall. pg. 134

It put a whole new twist on the enchanted sleep thing. Mr. Disney would be appalled. Unless, of course, he had been an Inderlander. That would explain a lot. pg. 139

I glanced at the perfect red ovals my nails made. "This isn't work, this is—therapy." pg. 143

"When you can't walk under the sun, you lose something so nebulous, you can't even say for sure what it is. But it's gone. It's as if she's stuck following a pattern of behavior but can't remember why." pg.160

"Just read up on the turn-ons, okay? And don't do them." pg. 180

Double damn. I was a harlot. I was a freaking vampire hussy. pg. 186

"Hey, I bought six squares in the office pool yesterday. Is there any way you could die tomorrow between seven and midnight?" pg. 195

"And they lived happy in the ever-after." Well… that's the way it's supposed to go. Grimm lost the "in the" part somewhere. pg. 228

My wistful sigh came out as a rather odd squeak, and I scampered to the drainpipe. pg. 257

They were expe-e-e-e-ensive. Perhaps they gave him a discount because of the frog incident. pg.274

I walked free, back out into the sun, more afraid of what I had turned down than of having left the I.S. pg. 335

"And there's not enough money to get pixies to invade other pixies' gardens. It just proves fairies are uncouth barbarians." pg 369

My cage held a bottle of water, a bowl of pellets, a ferret hut large enonugh to curl up in, and an exercise wheel. Like I would ever use it, I thought bitterly. pg 424

They could have trapped him in a cupboard or drawer as he nosed about. His wings never would have gotten wet and become as fragile as tissue paper. The ten-minute chase with a net wouldn't have happened. And half the officers on the floor wouldn't have been pixed. Ivy and Jenks had come to the FIB willingly, and they still ended up leaving a trail of chaos. What a violent, uncooperative Inderlander might do was frightening. pg 706

"The suspect is probably carrying spells," Edden continued.
"He's harmless," I muttered.
"Do not approach unless he tries to leave," Edden said tightly.
"Yeah." I snorted as we lurched into motion again. "He might bore you to death."
Edden turned to me. "Will you shut your mouth?"
I shrugged. pg.718

December 4th, 200701:59 pm - Darkly Dreaming Dexter by Jeffery Lindsay

MOON. GLORIOUS MOON. FULL, FAT, REDDISH moon, the night as light as day, the moonlight flooding down across the land and bringing joy, joy, joy. Bringing too the full-throated call of the tropical night, the soft and wild voice of the wind roaring through the hairs on your arm, the hollow wail of starlight, the teeth-grinding bellow of the moonlight off the water. pg. 1

Seven small mounds of earth were visible there. The heaped soil looked very dark in the moonlight. It must have looked even darker to Father Donovan. And still he did not move. pg.9

So I was tired, but the tension of the last week was gone, the cold voice of the Dark Passenger was quiet, and I could be me again. Quirky, funny, happy-go-lucky, dead-inside Dexter. pg. 18

A message for me is not a daily thing. For some reason, there are very few people in the world who can think of things to say to a blood spatter pattern analyst during working hours. pg 20

A true master's touch. Take the key witness and turn him against you. If you can screw up the case in the first few vital hours, it saves time and paperwork later. pg 35

She looked around, frowning, perhaps hoping a clue would leap out and she could shoot it. pg 34

Part of it was the calm and peace of the water. And another part was that in the best tradition of Miami watercraft, most of the other boaters seemed to be trying to kill me. I found that very relaxing. pg 44

Kids playing on the manicured grass. Mom and Dad barbecuing, or lounging, or polishing the barbed wire, hawkeyes on the kids pg. 43

Oh for a moon, a good fat moon, something bigger to look at. I clutch another fistful of pine needles. My face is hot, as if Dad has asked me to talk about sex dreams. Which, in a way— “It, uh . . . I kind of, you know, feel something,” I say. “Inside. Watching me. Maybe, um. Laughing? But not really a voice, just—” An eloquent teenaged shrug. But it seems to make sense to Harry. pg. 49

Squared away, oh yes, a completely Harry idea of how life is lived, with hospital corners and polished shoes. And even then I knew; needing to kill something every now and then would pretty much sooner or later get in the way of being squared away. pg 50

The wonderful, all-seeing, all-knowing man. Harry. My dad.
If only I was capable of love, how I would have loved Harry. pg 53

Every day at work I understand Harry a little better. pg 65

I could come into their house and would do no harm. I could be trusted.
Ironic, really. But true. pg. 69

In any case, we waited twenty minutes for a small table and then sat and waited another twenty for service. I didn't mind. I enjoyed watching good-looking idiots looking at each other. A great spectator sport. pg 72

Like a kid playing with his food,” is how I described it to Rita when I returned to the car. pg 74

Of course I gave him the fucking creeps. The only real question was why he was the only one in a room filled with cops who had the insight to get the fucking creeps from my presence. pg 90

I drove slowly, a few miles per hour under the speed limit. In Miami that's like wearing a KICK ME sign on your back. No one actually kicked me, of course. They would have had to slow down for that. But I was honked at seven times, flipped off eight, and five cars simply roared around me, either onto the sidewalk or through oncoming traffic. pg. 130

The press ate it up. You couldn't really blame them, I suppose. LaGuerta did a masterful job of presenting just enough fact colored with high-gloss wishful thinking that nearly anyone would have been convinced. And of course you don't actually have to take an IQ test to become a reporter. pg 139

He was probably watching the press conference on Channel 7, the channel of choice for people with an eye for carnage. At the moment he would be laughing too hard to hold a blade, but that would pass. And when it did his sense of humor would no doubt prompt him to comment on the situation. pg 142

For some reason I felt like I had to be absolutely certain. “You mean, you know. Like I've been doing? With, you know, the monkey?” pg 195

It was another clear example of the disintegration of society that had so worried Harry. Really, now: If you can't get me my newspaper on time, how can you expect me to refrain from killing people? PG 199

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Test..... [14 Jan 2008|03:12pm]
ZOMG! This is a test....
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